Crowned & Chosen

Have you ever had moments in your life where everything seems to be coming together and falling apart all at the same time?

You don’t know whether to be happy or sad, and each week (or day) just brings a whole new world of emotions (and sometimes confusion). I guess life is funny in that way…

These last few weeks have been a roller coaster for me. I’ve given birth to the most beautiful blessing, and I’m simultaneously dealing with the roller coaster of emotions that come along with postpartum healing. I am also having other things kind of crumble around me, but in it all, I am seeing the greatness of God.

That sounds weird, doesn’t it?

There are situations happening that my husband and I have to deal with while trying to heal and take care of a newborn, and I’m having complications with breastfeeding (which is a whole lot in itself), and yet…I still seek God’s abundant peace and grace.

What would that look like for you? Seeking God’s grace and peace and basking in it.

For me, I kept hearing “My grace is sufficient for you”. This was during a moment when I was crying out to God with a heaviness I needed to release to Him. I kept thinking, “where is this scripture? I know it had to be when Paul talked about the thorn in his side.” So I searched my Bible for this scripture because I needed that reassurance of God’s grace at that moment.

See, I searched for it in scripture for a couple of reasons. 1, so that I could see it with my own eyes and remember where I found it. 2, so that I can read the context around it, repeat it, memorize it, pray it out loud and keep myself grounded. It’s like an affirmation from God’s heart to my spirit.

And as I read it out loud, I began feeling God’s comfort all over me. I didn’t feel like I couldn’t do all that was being asked of me anymore, I didn’t feel so overwhelmed by all the responsibility that was on my shoulders, I didn’t feel down about having to rest when all I wanted to do was clean (C-section healing is a whole different type of healing, I tell you what).

A day later, those emotions came back again, and I had to remind myself that God’s grace is sufficient. I cried out to God, because sometimes it takes many times to finally get completely out of the valley, and he worked His way to me through someone I love.

My dad randomly called me to tell me I was in his prayer that morning and it was a prayer for me not to be overwhelmed. See, I haven’t talked to my dad about what’s been going on with me emotionally and physically. He had no idea the struggles I’ve been going through, so for that to be on his heart to pray, I knew God was placing things in my life as ways to prepare me for something greater.

I’m not comfortable sharing all that is going on, maybe one day. All I know is that while I’m over here loving on my daughter and husband, God is still building a character within me through this valley, and I am going to enjoy the ride.

Scripture says, “He will never put more on you than you can bear” (1 Corinthians 10:13), so if he trusts me to bear these trials, then I should trust that He’s right there guiding me.

What are some challenges you find yourself seeking God the most for?

P.s. the scripture from Romans about God’s grace is 2 Corinthians 12:8-9

“Three times I pleaded for the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”

P.s.s. 1 Corinthains 10:13 says:

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.”

XX,

Tanaya